Can't Sleep..

Yawns; Hello.. Good Morning. Its Haku's birthday and I've been very bad to him (I guess). I feel wrong so much because I didn't buy him a present, that's another reason for my Stay-awaken. I feel tired.. Really, I do. But I also don't understand why I can't sleep either :\ I see the Sunset, its rays is warm and beautiful.

I stay awake and playing my Game, Perfect world. With a help of my American friend, Dakota. He very kind though. Oh ya, another reason why I can't sleep is because my dog, Ninja, he was badly sick.. He vomited blood and poo blood also. I must see him suffering in pain while I can do "NOTHING". 24 hrs Vet-Clinic also can't be so easy to found in Singapore.

I miss Haku.

Letter, To "Haku" ( Copy from a real paper )

19 September 2010.

Dear Haku,

Hello.. This is my first letter that I wrote to you, Haku.
Hope you are well and.. Sigh, Hope you don't forget about me?
Its our anniversary, 1 year, but you not here with me in this Precious day.
Maybe its not precious for you, but for me its precious more then every things.

Where are you, Haku? Before you left Japan you told me that you will go travel around the world with your family and will able to came back on our anniversary.. But you didn't. I miss you a lot, I miss you, miss like never miss anythings before. I keep thinking about our days when we together, even its may be a short while but every moments every seconds every breath or every minutes that we had spend together is the moments, minutes that full of happiness, for me. Even sometimes we had a bad quarrel or argue, we still know that our love is Greater then every things. I love you always, Haku.

I really don't know what to do in IMVU when i know you already not there and one day if u suddenly online, I would be crazy and maybe i would jump down from the windows. And i must be super happy too. From then, I still no eyes on every single guys that steps in my life and trying to fills my empty heart that i had left for you. I really only love you Haku. Anyway, I think i had come so far for today now i will never waiting for your replied because i know that you wont replied. Why? Because you not there for me anymore.

Take care now.

Yours, Adel.

. . . . .

Legend has it..
The woman came from man's ribs.
Not from his feet to be walked on,
Not from his head to be superior,
but from the side to be equal,
under the arm to be protected,
and next to heart to be loved ♥

Abandon !

Hey.. A lot of things pass through my life in these days. I really dont know what to do anymore. I abandon most of things that reminds me about HIM. Imvu, my second life being abandon by me now. Haha, my Blog also being left out until spider making web on it already maybe LOL. Okay, i think from now on i will spends times on Blog more.

See ya~ ♥ ( Finished : 6:09 PM )

Long Long Way.. To go.

Didn't wrote my blog for very very very long already now.. Maybe because i too busy? Or too lazy to write. Many things had happand to me these days, too much until don't know how to do or how to.. Urgh I don't know already. I going out with " FRIENDS " More and i also spend times outside my house more then touch my computer. Exam... Coming soon, and yet, i havn't study for it. MATHEMATICS is my only ONE Problem, really big problem for me = =" Anyway, I got a good tuitor like Vonyi anyway ^ ^ Many people had passed by my life some of them make me hurt until feel like dont want to live in this world more. Some of them make me happy until feel like if i can stop time at the happiness moments, it will be super great? I dont care my sadness anymore, anyway. Because I also cannot live more then 10 years already though..

(Finished : 11:50 PM)

Dear Haku..

The Oxygen..

Hi.. I had change my blog's layouts and designs to make it match with my feelings now. I apologize for the font's colors that not very clear...Today i will tell you about one Love-romance story, its not long by the way..Okay, i will started now..

I was finding my Oxygen( I don't want to say who is my Oxygen ) , the only one that make me can live, the only one that make me live for and the only one that make me alive until now. I was finding this Oxygen for 2 and a half years.Since 11th of February 2009 while i was walking home after school suddenly I HAD FOUND OXYGEN.. The Oxygen stood in front of me, I very shocked and confused i don't know what to do. Finally, the Oxygen going to say something now.. The Oxygen said " Sorry, sorry for always make you waiting. Don't wait for me or find me anymore, if it was a perfect time, time that perfect enough.. You will seen me again.." Like wind had blown, He gone...again. From that time until now, I never seen The Oxygen again. Its already almost 2 years again of waiting for You, Oxygen.. I will still keep waiting with my hopefully to see you again soon. Today, Tomorrow or in the Future, i will still keep waiting for you to full fill my soul and be my Oxygen again..

With Love, A Girl.

My Finger's Probs = =

Hey hi ! First of all i must congratz to Charmaine about her love with her love one that already reach 1 month, wish you too got a greatz time together forever :D ! And if who had trying to separate them from each other i will punch their face >:0 (even i not dare enough to do that anyway) Today i was very tired and sleepy. After i go send Charmaine home i take a lift down with her bf. After we reach 1st floor i told him to go first because i need to wear my shoes properly so he go first, I was like wearing my shoes for 34 secs and than i rush to bus stop. While i walking i feel that my right hand index finger was very sticky so i look at my finger. OMG! Its was bleeding badly and the blood was like.. keep popping out (ewwwww..) I not feelings any pain at that time, I met Charmaine's bf at bus stop also o.o He saw my finger and ask what happen so i said i wear shoes till like that LoL. I dont have tissues dont have paper too but than at the bus stop i saw newspaper there so i tear one small pieces of news paper and wipe my finger and trow it away. After that the bus had come and my finger still havnt stop bleeding so i just ignore it and walked in bus like that. My blood dipped down till my middle finger. Got one auntie on the bus keep staring at my finger till i must hide it = = Anyway now it alrdy had stop bleeding but i still Lame enough to take a picture of it like up there. So yeah.. See you soon~ ! ♥ (Finished : 4:46 pm)

My stupid phone >:(

Hello!! Today my phone make me mad. Really mad >:( I think i should buy a new phone soon (Dad's money) Things that it make me angry is..

1. When someone called me, it keep rejected every called by it self !
2. When i connected it with computer it keep on lagging and after i let it lag for 15 seconds it shut down by it self !
3. When i MSG people, it keep on lag and some stupid message pop up that message say " USB Now connecting " Even i didnt connect it yet !
4. When i receive people's message it keep on vibrating non-stop !! Sometimes it keep vibrating more than 25 minute !!
5. When it was Saturday and Sunday, even i already had off the alarm in my phone because i usually wake up late. It's stupid alarm still keep ringing at 5:30 am of my Sunday and Saturday !!

This 5 reasons make me want to trow my phone in toilet bowl so much !! But if i do that i sure got probs with my parents again. So i must be patient and waiting for my new phone to come and i will trow this stupid phone out of my window for sure !

(Finished: 9:03 pm)

" BLUE "

Okay, Hi everyone. Today I had went to one website its called POSTJUNG.COM. Its a Thai's website by the way, and they had talking about "BLUE" the Blue that i means must be a picture or a songs that got a word Blues in side. So yeah i was entering this contest by making my picture BLUE, not really blue just my hair and some.. eyes? Well whatever my first picture still get the 2nd prize and my second picture still get the 4th prize =.= I believe everyone wanna be the first winner. But when i had see the winner's picture its really amazing, its was a picture that was about a Sky and Ocean. Very nice.. so yeah i dont mind let he win tho :P And the 3rd prize is a song about Blues, one girl name Blue falling in love with one boy name Blue, they two got the same name well yea. So yah there is the 1st prize picture? Okay so yeah again with this.. See you sooon~ ! (Finished : 7:57 pm)

My Day Without Him

Hi guys its me again of cause. This post i guess i must use lots of time to finish it because of my left hand and my left hand's finger injured because i had cut my hand and pour hot Milo on it such a silliness i know. Well, the reason that my hand hurt is because my weird-love problem. Haku not able to online last night I means he did get on but just talked to me for a while only because of his internet connection yea, as he tell me? And i do believe him tho. But because of that, last night i thought he busy on somethings and not care me anymore so i cry from 1 am until 3 am that i must go sleep and still after i wake up i still continue crying from 9 am that i wake up until 4:37 pm i had stop cry. I think that if today or tomorrow he still didn't get on I will suicide next week and i already think all the plan what time to suicide and i guess tomorrow i will wrote a letters to my parents and my best friends and beg them for forgiveness that i had did on such a stupid things just for one guy, to suicide just for one Guy. But no one knows that just one Guy called Haku is worth to me, no one knows how much he means to me. Well, continue about my suicide plan, I still cant decided that i should hang my self on a big tree at the hill near my house or run to a road while Porch or Lamborghini pass by. But i guess dead by hot cars must be very cool when i become ghost and go tell other ghost about how i died haha. Anyway i believe that my heart and Haku's heart had got an invisible web that link to each other :3 And i also believe that this invisible web is very sticky and hard to be rip or torn from each other x3 Well now, i had using 1 hours and 34 minuets to type all this craps. My hand got blood again so yeah, hehe i'd like to stop now tho >.<>

"I LOVE YOU, HAKU ♥"

(Finished : 1:50 am)

Why I cant download audition D:

Why why why~ ! I wanna play audition T^T I also download everythings as it say already why i still cant download it !! Some body help me DX I try download it for 7 times already huu~ Or i should beg Charmaine to come to my house and download it for me Q ~ Q? Yeah maybe i should. I wanna play audition till i cry already DX Omg !!!

Snow city :D

Hi hi hi ! Yesterday my science teacher bring me and my classmates to Snow city at Jurong point some where there. It was very fun and afflicted hah, the tempreture inside there as usual is -16 but when we go in, there was raining so the tempreture inside there was -19 to -21 degrees. Me and my classmates freezing inside there for 2 and a half hours, my hair and my pants became ice. My lips frozen my tongue freezing and my feet and hands numb, very cold. I also go play the ice-slide thing, its was fun when i played at the 2-3 rounds but at the 4-6 rounds my back being scratch by the piece of ice. I wont be so shocked if that ice piece wont stuck in my waist ! From when i slide down i just feel a bit pain but i havnt know that the ice stuck in my waist until one of my friend point at my waist and scream. I tried to pulled that piece of ice out from my back but failed, so my friend come to help me pulled it out, after she had pulled it out my blood squirt out alot, 30 seconds my blood being froze by coldness and i not feelings pain too, because the tempreture is cold thats why i not feelings any pain. Go to snow city i also must played snow right? So i trow snow balls at my friends one of my friend named Nicholas, he trow the snow at my face x_x Haha i dont mind him anyway ;D Umm.. well its a fun day at Snow city, but i dont want to go again x.x i dont know why also. So well umm.. See you sooon~ :D ( Finished : 5:32 pm )

My fighting day!

i go slap one boy from 1C he fucking rude
so i grab his shirt and pull here pull there
and push him on floor
go sit on him and slap him loh
then he keep shouting " Father fucker! "
while i slapping him
and i keep saying
Fuck ur dead lah go fuck ur dead idiot cock head!
and his finger nails damn long
he scratch my arm till go scratch
= =
and i stand up
kick his ass
and scold him loh
fuck ur mum
Kid!
dont know who is high who is low
am not ur mum okay!?
u fucking dick face
go suck ur father cock than
or do Y shape with ur mother!
go and died lah idiot face
XD
first the story began like this
got 4 ppl
walk behide me
while i going back home with Deviya
one is malay boy
one is indian boy
and the left is
2 indian girls
while i walk infront of them
me and deviya*
the malay boy
go kick deviya back
bag**
and than laugh with each other
so i turn and see them
i say nothing loh
and deviya just say
ey! walaoo eh
and keep walking
and after that
they said
the malay boy*
said
Oi! I see pink stupid teddy bear bag
so funny
( they mean my bag) = =
and i was mad
cuz they scold my beloved bag
so i said
Teddy bear ur dad lah!
u fucking blind leh u
the ears fucking long still say teddy bear
u blind ah huh !?
than keep walking while mumbles
they also still behide us
and they go talk malay with each other
and after that
the malay boy
come punch my bag
= =
so i grab his shirt and shout loh
and shake him
u punch my bag for what!?
For fuck is it !?
am not like my friend ( deviya ) U know !?
not ur friend okay!?
and shake him
so
he going to push me
and i push him down and slap him as i tell u just now
the indian boy
keep laughing -_-
and the two indian girl keep smiling
omg
so i shout at them
what so funny!? ur mum didnt shave the pussy right!?
idiot eh!
and the
indian boy say
huh!? u call me idiot??
than i said
did i say to u !?
u deaf ah huh!?
than after that
he keep saying walao
and his teeth like popping out from his mouth
so his ancient very funny
and i still hitting malay boy while shouting at indian one
and i say
u dare laugh one more time i will punch u till ur teeth go in, and u will regret it!
than deviya laugh
than he said
but it funny what! punching a bag
and i said
U think is so funny is it!?
why dont let me punch u too and u will know that funny or not!
so i goes down from the malay boy and the malay boy run to the opposite road
and go push the indian boy
the indian boy said sorry to me
so i dont attack him
and all of them run to the opposite road
and i take my bag
and keep walking while mumbling
and the malay boy from the opposite road keep shouting rude word to me
so i also shout rude word at him
got alot people also
but i just dont care
we scold each other from opposite road until the malayboy turn and he get lost from my eyes sigh loh
thats all.

Me @ School

Me @ Macdonald

Hi ! Today is my fun-day again. I went to Macdonald opposite my house with my hat on and laptop with me (laptop is apart of my life now) I didnt go there alone by the way, i go there with my mum and Ninja my lovely 4 legs brother. Yes, he is a doggy when i reach Mac i found that there was no place for me to sit ! People everywhere and today it was some silly kid's birthday too so Macdonald full with Kids Kids Kids and Kids ! Well, obviously i completely pissed off already ! So i tell mum to go home i turn and walking to the road. Suddenly I hit with one person (again) I dont know why ! I must always hit with People -sigh- whatever than. That mystery person say Sorry to me, i look at his face, it was Keefe !! Omg i never know he will come to visit me Haha, so well Me, Keefe and my mum oh yea Ninja too was sitting at Macdonald eatting and chat chat. It was fun with Keefe? After 3 hours passed at Mac. Keefe going home and me and mum going home too, i bought Strawberry Sundae home >w< !! And when i reach home i feel so tired maybe because i racing with Ninja all the way home by running up the Hills.
Well, i gonna end now See you soooon~ ! ( Finished : 7:59 pm )

Friday = =

Finally it was Friday!! The day that I guess all kids must waiting for. Today i forgot to bring my wallet to school again, so yea.. i must borrow money from Keefe for my lunch for $2. Von yi treat me drinks and after school Keefe treat me drinks and Von yi treat me fries. It was vert awkward for me why? Because i must let my classmates that younger than me almost 2 years treat me Food! I promise to God that i will never forget to bring wallet again if i can. Well everytime when i borrow Keefe moneys i always return him back in the next school days See..? how Honest am i. Well anyway today i was very lonely after i go each lunch with Keefe, Von yi, Weffles. I must went home alone by my self ( not with parents or what ) Everytimes i will came home with Deviya. She live in Commonwealth too, but today she got her Mother tongue and she must back home late. I also cannot wait for her till she finish her Tamil class. I keep on whining on phone at school's bus stop for 5 mins begging Brandon ( one of my best friend ) to bring me hangout at his house BUT HE ALSO NOT FREE !!! Omg ! Why everyone is busy except me !! Well, nevermind that, after i suffering for the whole day TONIGHT I CAN SLEEP LATE! Anyway, I must go sleep now its alrdy morning
So well.. See Ya Sooooon ~ ( Finished : 4:00 am )

My Sunday activities

Hi everyone ! Today is Sunday and i got tuition on every Sunday too. When i woke up, i got a big quarrel with my mum the problems is from when she was asking me about something in computer and i was mad for no reason. I always getting mad if someone ask me a question so my attitude turn bad and rude to my mum. Until its time for me to go to tuition already, in tuition its like normal day of tuition and everythings continues happily. Me and my mum forgive each other. Tonight i can sleep late because tomorrow is Singapore Youth Day, so school was got holiday i was very happy now, my stomach also hurt lesser already :D well i would just chatting with my beloved Haku till he go sleep and than i will just having fun in Facebook.
See You Soon ~ ! ( Finishes : 10:10 pm )

Is Saturday !

Yay~! Finally it was Saturday! I woke up at 1:40 pm
My stomach was hurt badly because i was having my period, this time it the most hurtiest as i never hurt as this before. After i woke up, mummy ask me to go down to go eat lunch with her, i told her that my stomach hurt a lot but she still force me to go down T^T Well after i already go down, the shop that we wanted to go eat was closed so i just buy Nasi Lemak for mum and for my self. After i done eating, its a long way for me to sit infront of computer and make my computer A Life.

See You Soon ~ ♥ ( Finished : 16:20 pm )

Tired Day !

Omg ! Today is the most tired day of the week.

I got test today, after test i rest my head on table. Everythings seems to be fine.. But suddenly ! One of my classmate shout out loud and rude words that make me cant sleep anymore. And if i cant sleep its = Headache, I got bad headache after that. After school, i cant even find my friend that i always go home with ( she stay at the same place as me ) Omg where the hacked is she ? I must keep running from second floor to first floor, very tired. And still when i was waiting for bus, bus stop became super crowded and no place even to stand on. Thats not a big deal for me, but my problems is its raining too so people keep splash water at me ( ofcause they didnt did that on purpose ) Okay now, when i was already on the bus i follow my 2 males friends to second floor of the bus and i was sitting behide them. No choices, the bus really very crowded and noisy. And my seat on my left is water dropping down from the bus's roof and drop down at my seat beside me ! My left side is all wet, you would think that why i so stupid, i should just move from that seat right? If i can, i will. The seat was all full both second floor and first floor, lucky my school and my house didnt far from each other much so i must survive for just 10 minutes. Okay now done for the first bus, my second bus trips was the most horrible today. And ofcause the rain still keep falling down as like it never wanted to stop, i wating for the bus for 6 mins and finally the bus had arrived. As my manners there's an old lady infront of me so i must stop and let her go on the bus first while i waiting below of the bus with the rain dropping on my head and body -_-" I dont know why, she can be that slow. So when i reach home, i hurried go shower and eat some.. I dont know mum do for me one. Well tonight i think i will sleep at 2:00 am.

See You Soon ~ ! ♥ ( Finished: 11:43 pm )